Yes, it's not a typo, our fire alarms.
You see, we have fire alarms that go off at ANYTHING other than water being cooked on the stove top. Doesn't matter what it is, doesnt matter what stage of cooking it is in, if it's anything other than water being boiled you're in trouble. While I appreciate the safety this affords us, it's incredibly frustrating when you're just trying to cook dinner, and to top it off the sudden nature of the alarms going off seems to be a really bad trigger for me - it freaks me out!!! Then Brad was getting cranky at the dog, and I just couldn't take it - I felt like there was danger all around me and I just dissolved.
Then today my husband and I sat down to watch a movie and we chose a movie called Harry Brown which we thought would be an ok movie to watch. Unfortunately we were wrong. The violence, swearing, drugs and disgusting scenes in the movie slowly began to disgust me and anger me, and then at one point there's a man who suddenly yells really loud and I lost it - I yelled at brad to turn it off and then had a full blown panic attack. It took me ages to calm down. I couldn't handle the violence or the "base-ness" of what I was seeing. I'm so angry at what is acceptable in this world. I'm so frustrated about what people will accept. It makes me long for a world where drug abuse, alcoholism, domestic violence, sex and all manner of catering to the most basic primal pleasures is no longer acceptable: where people stand up and DO SOMETHING.
I feel like a freak. Like an absolute FREAK in this world. And if I dare say anything I get told to stop being a "prude" and to get a "sense of humor". Today I got told that I have no sense of humor because I didn't find a video on youtube equating being "australian" with being a drunken moron funny - it's become so much a part of our lives that to NOT go out and get drunk, have sex outside of marriage, not swear, not smoke, not to do drugs, lie, cheat, steal or be out only for number one is NOT normal - I'm somehow "going against the grain".....WHY SHOULD IT BE???? Who the hell (emphasis intentional) decided that this was ok???
Scripture says in Philippians 4:8 "Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things". Perhaps God emphasises this because He knew just how hard that would be.

So, how am I going to do this? So glad you asked!!! Here's my list...
- Time to launch a prayer ATTACK on my workplace - that includes praying during the day, speaking in tounges while I work, prayer in every room and watching my language and my witness to my workmates.
- From now on I am going to be very careful about what I watch and what I listen to - I will do as scripture says!!
- I need to make Christian friendships a priority because they're sadly lacking in my immediate world - I miss having a church family and I need that back
- I need to prioritise church events over other things rather than always putting them off
- I will no longer hide my witness - I'm Christian and I'm not afraid for others to know it and even challenge it
- I'm going to bake something and take it over to the neighbours - its wrong that we've never met
- my online presence in the short term will probably reduce - I need to start concerntrating on my real world rather than the online world. I'm sick of being addicted to facebook and to being online. It's time I take control over my life.
I honestly believe that only my relationship with God will heal my bruised spirit right now. But in order for me to tap into that I have to stop isolating myself from others, and I have to most of all concentrate on those things that God values - not what the world values. So this is fair warning - if there's stuff I see that isn't good, pure, noble, lovely I WILL DELETE IT. I won't indulge it anymore. I wish I could be done with this world, but so long as I'm in it I WILL make a difference to my little corner of it.
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