Saturday, 8 June 2013

Under New Management....

So, this morning I went out to the shops to get a steam mop (which is awesome!!!). I was driving back with my pooch along the highway when I noticed a service station. It had a big, loud sign out the front saying "under new management".

I began to wonder why businesses would want to advertise that. I smiled to myself because I figured it's kind of like wiping the slate clean with anyone who isn't happy with that business - it's a way of starting from scratch.....Oh, didn't like us before? Don't worry, any mistakes that are made are gone now because it wasn't us! We're under new management! Not exactly a vote of confidence towards the previous owners is it? LOL But I digress....

I began thinking about myself, and my life. I haven't been very nice to myself at times. All the terrible awful stuff that was passed down to me by my parents, especially my father, has been perpetuated by none other than myself! I still dream about my father harassing me, following me, turning up and causing a fight, threatening me. And when I'm not having dreams about my past, I'm talking to myself exactly as he used to talk to me, perpetuating the cycle of violence, abuse and rejection in my life. He still controls me even though I haven't seen him in around 10 years at least.

It makes me think that maybe its time that I hang a sign around my neck saying "Under New Management" - the good news is that God gives me mercies afresh every single morning, which means any day I can start afresh - but I dont want to be under the management of myself anymore. Perhaps its time to just hand it all over to the Master Manager and let Him deal with it!


2 comments:

  1. I am Under new management.... I like that!

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  2. Love this Pam - here's to new management and changing the coversation in your head :)

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